looking back. moving forward.

"I try to avoid looking forward or backward, and try to keep looking upward.” -Charlotte Bronte

Whenever I have a friend who goes through infertility, it breaks my heart. The emotions that I felt/feel come back to me in a very real way and I wish with all my heart that I could just see into the future and then tell them that everything will be okay. When I look back and remember the pain that I felt during the time I was yearning to be a Mother I wish I could tell myself that everything would work out. At times, I would get mad if people DID tell me that it would all work out..."how could they know?" I would think to myself. There is one person who does know. That is Heavenly Father.

He knows what we need when we need it. As I look forward and wonder what will be in the future as far as having children and expanding our family...I get a little terrified. But, I know that whatever happens will happen according to the plan of our Father in Heaven. I may not like it very much, or... I may absolutely love it. But one thing is for sure. Heavenly Father is watching over us and gives us strength in various forms.

Today, I had a little reminder of that. When I saw the title "Faith and Infertility" on the cover of the April Ensign, I ripped the plastic from the cover! 5 beautiful, wonderful pages of strength and reassurance. All I have to say is... I love the gospel!

I wish I had a link to the article, but it's not online quite yet. I'll link it up when it's there.

POST EDITED TO ADD: Here is the link to the article.