looking back. moving forward.

"I try to avoid looking forward or backward, and try to keep looking upward.” -Charlotte Bronte

Whenever I have a friend who goes through infertility, it breaks my heart. The emotions that I felt/feel come back to me in a very real way and I wish with all my heart that I could just see into the future and then tell them that everything will be okay. When I look back and remember the pain that I felt during the time I was yearning to be a Mother I wish I could tell myself that everything would work out. At times, I would get mad if people DID tell me that it would all work out..."how could they know?" I would think to myself. There is one person who does know. That is Heavenly Father.

He knows what we need when we need it. As I look forward and wonder what will be in the future as far as having children and expanding our family...I get a little terrified. But, I know that whatever happens will happen according to the plan of our Father in Heaven. I may not like it very much, or... I may absolutely love it. But one thing is for sure. Heavenly Father is watching over us and gives us strength in various forms.

Today, I had a little reminder of that. When I saw the title "Faith and Infertility" on the cover of the April Ensign, I ripped the plastic from the cover! 5 beautiful, wonderful pages of strength and reassurance. All I have to say is... I love the gospel!

I wish I had a link to the article, but it's not online quite yet. I'll link it up when it's there.

POST EDITED TO ADD: Here is the link to the article.


Brianna Tuckett said...

Thank you Laura! It's good to remember that perspective and keep in mind that it really is our Heavenly Father in charge. I know that someday I'll look back on all this and know that it was worth it and maybe even know a little bit better of why it had to happen, but for now I'm going to take your advice and just trust in my Heavenly Father and know that everything will be okay.

Harris said...

Oh I am really excited to read this. please post the article when you see it up. We never get the Ensign and I don't check the website often enough. But that is fantastic. i really can't read it!