6.04.2009

Let Him Work Miracles

The first Sunday in March we were in fast and testimony meeting at church. As the meeting progressed, there seemed to be a theme that continued through many testimonies.

Miracles.

I don't care what people may say... I believe in miracles. I have witnessed many miracles, large and small, seen and unseen, as I have watched family members and friends experience them. God does not leave us without experiences and examples which help witness to us that He is in our lives.

I was, however, starting to feel a little bit bitter. "What about me?" What about our miracle? That miracle where something out of my control---namely trying to conceive---suddenly goes exactly right and life is hunky dory and everyone sees that life is a miracle? In my case, Heavenly Father must know that when Satan jumps in with the "what about me?" doubts, He needs to intervene quickly...and He did, my mind and soul soon felt at peace as I realized that...the miracle that God was working had already taken place...was still taking place...Over the last 3 years, God had worked a miracle within my heart and soul.

The miracles that often go unnoticed, except by those who experience them (and often these are not even noticed until hindsight kicks in), are these miracles where God strengthens and molds us through trials and callings and life experiences. That it what I know had taken place within me. That day I shared with my branch that I know through our trails, God works miracles, but sometimes, they are not seen, sometimes he works them within us, within our hearts.

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However,

what I didn't know...

...was that God was busy working another miracle...

...within me...

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literally.


On April 14th, 2009, (coincidentally, my due date for our 3rd miscarriage)...

...I took a positive pregnancy test.


I am now 14 weeks pregnant.


Some of you will shout for joy because you know of the pain and struggle that it has been for us to come this far. But the reality I know is that
some of your tears will not be so happy...

To you whose tears are from the pains and longing for children, I feel very inadequate at the moment and can say nothing to try and ease that pain. I've felt that pain, and it hurts. It is real. The only person who can truly heal and comfort that pain is the Savior.

"In our own storms in life the Savior is our solace and our sanctuary. If we seek peace, we must come unto Him. He Himself spoke this eternal truth when He said, “My yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” When our souls are anchored in the safe harbor of the Savior, we can proclaim as did Paul: “We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed.” (Joseph B. Wirthlin, Ensign May 2000)

Just know that I love you, I know that many of you have prayed for us and I thank you all for the many thoughts and prayers in our behalf. We love you all so much!


"Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream

Really do come true."


9 comments:

Katey said...

Congratulations! That's so exciting! It's good to have hope!

Brianna and Rusty Tuckett said...

Laura, I cannot tell you how excited I am for you!!!! Of all people, you and Connell are the most deserving couple I know to have this miracle happen!!! I will continue to pray that all goes well for you!!! I thank you from the bottom of my heart for the words of wisdom and encouragement you have given to me! I know that someday my miracle will happen and I will feel just as lucky and blessed and you do. May the Lord's mercy continue to be upon you, your husband, and your baby!! Thank heaven for miracles!!!

Terra said...

I'm sooooooooooooooooo EXCITED for you. I really wish you guys weren't moving now but I am so incredibly happy for you. You are going to be the best mom ever! I hope everything continues to go well with the pregnancy. We will keep you in our prayers! Love you guys!!!!

mrs.infertility said...

congratualations! that is GREAT news!!! thanks for the hope :)

April said...

You don't know me. I've had your blog on Google Reader for a while. I have really enjoyed your insights and thoughts. I am so happy for you hope you will continue to share your thoughts.

MindySue said...

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I am so happy for you guys!!! I can't wait for you to have that little one and just love the stuffin' out of it. You will be a fabulous mother, perhaps a better one, because of the struggle that you have had. I am so excited for you!

Ashley said...

Okay, don't know HOW I missed this post, but I am so excited for you!!!

Many hugs, many happy tears, mucho congratulations and thank you for giving the rest of us hope.

Charisa and Trent said...

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!!! and i totally wish i was there to give you a big bear hug!
our thoughts and prayers are with you guys often!!!

Mrs. TPott said...

CONGRATS & Hooray!! I'll be keeping you in my prayers so that all will go smoothly & you won't be worried! Miracles happen, eh?